2003年3月30日
OMGOMGOMG~~~
TOMORROW IS THE DAY!!
Here comes our Spring quarter~~~ (Man, I really wish I could have a longer break!!)
Here's my schedule for the quarter:
BIOC 442
JAPAN 113
CHEM 399
ESS 495
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2003年3月28日
Have any of you heard about Robert Sean Leonard?
He's a swinging dude, I'm telling you.....
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I trashed myself totally....
I never knew NTU people can be so much fun to chat with, not all of them are as "nerdy + geeky" (sorry, I made those words up...) as I've imagined, and they are REALLY FUNNY!!!
Anyway, happy chatted with several of my friends online, and guess it's a good time to meet 周公la~~
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2003年3月27日
Ok, I have to confess that those guys are just too cute to be true. There were 4 guys in our Hall Health today, and each one of them was at least 6"3', and they are just way too good-looking!! Man~~ I'm telling you....way too cute.... Damn!! Too bad that I was in such a hurry to rush out of the building coz I promised Laura to take care of Matthew for her.
Oh, by the way, have I ever told you that Matthew is the cutest-sweetheart ever? (little cutey can always steal my heart~~~ Trinity, Samuel, Sarah and Matthew....) I spent nearly 2 hours together with Matthew this afternoon, and Laura says that little Matty doesn't always that nice to people. Gosh, I'm so flattered! (Guess I'm pretty good at dealing with kids!! It's probably because MYSELF IS ONE, too!!) And I had no problem communicating with the kiddy. ("no problem" communicating with a nearly 2-year-old tot!? Don't know if I should be happy about it or be sad about it....)
Just finished watching SPEED again. (yes, you can yell it at my face, "AGAIN".) Keanu Reeves is just the type for me...(ok, I'm just being dreamy again...oh well, it's a "after-movie symptom", I suppose.)
Just contact with the biochem department, and I'm not so sure if I want to do the biochem lab or not. But I guess I'll have to since I might need a !@#$%^& letter from them in the future. (and of course I cannot say that to them.) [beep]
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2003年3月26日
Just got back from Connie's. Met several new people!!
Man~~ it's such a small place, and everyone knows pretty much each other.... (and heard so many gossip as well...)
Anyways, we're gonna go for Les Miserable tomorrow night, and it'll be my first time for a musical. Should be fun!!
BTW, Simon, thanks!!
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Gotta go out to take care my lab + work thing.
"我回來再來看你們" (Hey, I like that , Doris!!)
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真不敢相信自己已經對某些事情感到麻木了. Quite sad, isn't it?
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2003年3月25日
Resume怎麼這麼難寫啊.............
Education Background + College and Community Awards and Honors + Undergraduate Research + Employment History + Extracurricular Activites + Essay (career goal or personal statement) + faculty recommendations + transcript, are all required.
That makes only GEEKS can get scholarships or jobs.
Oh BTW, it has been 1/2 way of my break, I'm just wondering when I can get my stupid report handed in. My lab instructor still holds some of the results, and he promised me that he'll give them to me. Man~~ can we get it done any sooner?
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2003年3月24日
CRAP!!!
It's my spring break already, and I still have PILES of essays to write.
Screw the scholarships........
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Had fun shopping in downtown alone. (oh~~ with my dear MP3 of course.)
Guess I have to work from tommorrow otherwise I'lll be broke if I keep shopping this way........
Stud's phone call makes me wanna have some hot pot tonight, so I went straight to Chinatown for the food after shopping.
It must be REALLY GOOD to have a hot pot alone!!!!
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SUCKS!!! [beep~~~]
Why didn't you say so earlier? That makes me have to re-write the whole report basically!!!
YOU SHOULD DIE!!!!
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Good!! My day is now complete.
Guess I'll skip posting my statement here coz I suck at writing stuff like that.
Ayways, I'll have to talk to Wei and Taifo about my research report and my recommendations. Wish me luck!!
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2003年3月23日
Bull's-eye!!!
I'm so good at it!!
I found 蔣濱洲 + 吳均理 today!! Hahahaha!!!
Joe Chiang is currently studying at Stanford EE major, and Ed Wu is now in Vancouver.
(Man~~ Why is everyone in Vancouver not Seattle?)
Anyway, I'm so impressed that Ed still remember he came to my place and swam with me.....hahahaha~~ (I don't remeber that part...I just remember he helped me a lot on my summer homework thing....Thanks, Ed!!)
K, my day is complete only if I can finish the damn statement tonight.
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K, gotta head back to compose my statement thing for the scholarship.
I always tell my friends to write something "impressive" in their statement, now I know how hard it is to make a statement impressive......
IMPRESSIVE? Is that exactly what I told my friends? What the hell was I thinking???
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GOSH!! Did you see how Adrien Brody kissed Halle Berry!?
That was the HOTTEST KISS I've ever seen on the Oscar stage......
Must-see of the year 2003:
Chicago
The Pianist
The Hours
Y Tu Mama Tabien
posted by Biochemie on 9:19 下午
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Hell big news of the day........
GOD!!! I just dug out SO MANY interesting facts + things heppened in primary school that I didn't even aware of....guess I was involved as well......
"Ranking" thing? God, it sounds like something what American high school people would do, but we do had that back in our primary school....I didn't even aware of.....
Sometimes I envy those of you who had bunch of people stick together for 6 years, and you know each other well, but now I guess our Tien-Mu 2-year class policy makes our primary school life more interestng!!! People all know each other!!!
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2003年3月22日
OK. The cake I just made......SUCKS!!!
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Hahahaha!!
You're NOT gonna believe who I found in Vancouver.
Roy (S.F.U.) and Jason (U. Vic.)!!! Although we were not in the same same class when we were in primary school, but we heard each other's names. And amazingly, Roy was in my neighborhood!! (you have to realize that Tien-Mu is a pretty bid area~~) And there are several people whom we went to school together with are in the same neighborhood:
金巧文 (Roy + Jasons's primary graduating classmate; my 1st~2nd grade classmate.)
許馨文 (Roy + Jason's primary graduating classmate; Skylar + my 1st~2nd grade classmate; Mom's childhood neighbor's daughter.)
張宏瀚 (Roy + Jasons's primary graduating classmate; and he is in my community nowadays as well, in Tam-Shui.)
陳詩韻 (Roy + Jason's primary graduating classmate; my secondary graduating classmate.)
許杏陵 (Roy + Jason's primary graduating classmate; Skylar's secondary graduating classmate.)
Skylar (Roy's 3rd~4th grade classmate; my best buddy.)
蔣濱州 (In our Tein-Mu neighborhood; Stanford now.)
吳均理 (In our Tien-Mu neighborhood; my 3rd~4th grade classmate; waiting to be confirmed.)
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2003年3月20日
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posted by Biochemie on 4:53 下午
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I'm taking off.
Call my cell if you need me.
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YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYES!!!!
Finish writing my research report for the quarter!!!
accomplishment: 14 pages, 2246 words.
Told you I'm pretty good at writing scientific papers~~~
Leaving for Vancouver "today", and I'll see you again this Saturday!!
WORLD PEACE.
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2003年3月19日
humm~~ guess it's the perfect timing for a shower now, coz my head is fed up with all those Pyralomicins + Validamycin stuff....
!@#$%^&*.....
I need a break~~
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Man~~~ 我...的...頭...快...炸...掉...了...
哥哥說的果然沒錯, 太多事要做, 結果每一件都做不好. 豬!!
(By the way, nice talking to you, Kelvin!!! Hope you're doing ok there!!!)
Here are lists of things need to be done~~~~~
(a note for myself, rather.)
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Mimi's Spring Break
finish my research report
visit Simon
study for MCAT
clean up my room
talk to Taifo, recommendation letters (scholarship + med-school)
apply for the biochem scholarship
Mimi's Spring Quarter
talk to biochem prof. to find another undergrad. research
talk to Taifo, exempt biochem 426
talk to pre-med adviser
study for MCAT
TOSA + ITASA business (lowest priority)
Mimi's Summer Quarter
register for MCAT (7/11)
take MCAT (8/16)
contact biochem department
@ 4.0 Japanese :P
Mimi's Summer Break
contact Prof. Fann for recommendation letter
contact Roche
volunteer at NTUH (hopefully)
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This is me...... This is SO me......
1st night after final, and you can tell I really "make the best use of my night" by noticing the time I post this.
Tomorrow will be a hell busy day, not to mention that there is a final report need to be taken care of.
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2003年3月18日
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Screw the biochem final.
There is ABSOLUTELY NO WAY that I can memorize all the mechanisms......
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2003年3月17日
斃!!
眼睛越來越小....越來越小....
我的lac operon..... DNA-protein interaction....
posted by Biochemie on 10:30 下午
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MY GOD!!
I'm about to have a "cross-eye" after finishing all those DNA replication + repair and RNA transcription thing.....
And more RNA thing is awaiting......
>.<"
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St. Patrick's Day!!
Don't forget to wear something green today!!
(I'd better go back to my biochem study, otherwise you'll see my face green.....)
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No Answers Yet on Mystery Pneumonia
CNN health news
Sunday, March 16, 2003 Posted: 4:51 PM EST (2151 GMT)
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ATLANTA, Georgia (CNN) -- A particularly virulent form of pneumonia had scientists and doctors scrambling Sunday for more information to share with a fearful public that already has been told to consider postponing visits to several locations where the disease has been reported.
Looking to stem any groundswell of panic, Centers for Disease Control and Prevention Director Dr. Julie Gerberding noted that "a lot of illnesses" spread at this time of the year.
"We don't even know [if] it's a virus," she told CNN. "It is flu season. We may be confusing this particular illness with garden-variety flu in some cases."
"This particular illness" is the newly named Severe Acute Respiratory Syndrome, or SARS, an atypical pneumonia that was first recognized last November in China's Guangdong province.
An outbreak of the illness there killed five of the 350 people infected before ending in mid-February, World Health Organization spokesman Dick Thompson said.
Over the past week, more than 150 new or suspected cases of the pneumonia have been reported around the world, the WHO said. Nine of those people have died.
Other cases have been identified in Canada, Hong Kong, Indonesia, the Philippines, Singapore, Thailand and Vietnam -- including one case of a Singapore doctor who began exhibiting symptoms as he flew from a medical conference in New York back to his home in Singapore.
The doctor, who had recently treated two SARS patients in Singapore, and his two traveling companions were placed in medical isolation Saturday in Frankfurt, Germany.
The New York City Health Department said the doctor attended the conference for only "a few hours" and had "minimal contact with others" during his two days in the city.
The physician is in stable condition with a respiratory illness, the health department said.
Another person, who traveled from the state of Georgia to Canada, appears to have been stricken with the illness, Gerberding said.
Health authorities in New York and Georgia are attempting to trace the travelers' contacts while they were in the United States, she said.
WHO said the outbreak of the disease constituted "a worldwide threat," but did not recommend travel restrictions.
The CDC, however, urged people to consider alternate to any plans to travel to the affected areas.
Asked whether the outbreak could have been caused by terrorism, Gerberding said, "We have to keep an open mind."
A spokesman for the Transportation Security Administration, which oversees security on airlines, said, "All information at present indicates this is a public health issue unrelated to any act of terrorism."
Gerberding said the CDC was taking no risks with the disease, handing out cards explaining the symptoms and what to do to people returning from cruises or trips to the areas where the disease has been identified.
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Blogger ate my post!!!! Grrrrrrrrrr..........................
Ok, I cannot remember what I was trying to say here.....
DNA replication ---- check
DNA repair ---- check
(I know that I can accomplish more during night time when people are all in their sweet dream~~~)
I looked up in the sky when I waited for night ride, I saw stars' twinkling~~ So pretty!!! Orion, Cassiopeia~~~ (God, I should major in astronomy!!) And you ought to see the Space Needle tonight. Somehow, it's just prettier than usual. The sky is so clear, even in black; the lights of the buildings in downtown are so eye-dazzling, even with atmospherical scintillation.
Seattle, this is the place makes me sleepless.
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2003年3月16日
我...快...睡...著...了...
(不行不行!! 要唸書!!!!)
<猛拍自己的臉中~~>
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I'm so so so hungry.....
肚子餓死了....>.<"
這個死東西, 不知道野到哪裡去了, 不是要去吃dim-sum嗎!?
虧我那麼早起, 豬!!!
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2003年3月14日
薩伊在哪�堙H
週末心情
~王文華
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星期六的下午，想去薩伊。
姪子六歲了，下班回家跟他玩，常讓我學到很多東西。星期二，我們把世界地圖攤在地上，他突然問我：「薩伊在哪�堙H」我當然知道這是非洲國家，不過一時間要在密密麻麻的地圖上找到薩伊，我還真得擦擦眼鏡。這時他不奈地說：「就在這�媢嚏I你知道英國，怎麼不知道薩伊呢？你看在地圖上，薩伊還比英國還大啊！」
我腦羞成怒，為了報仇，我指著地圖，故意刁難他：「你知道世界上最強盛的國家是哪一國嗎？」他立刻說：「格林蘭！」「為什麼？」「你看，格林蘭很大啊！」
成熟人最大的優點，是他分得出優先順序。世界上有許多國家、生活中有很多電話，他知道英國比薩伊重要，他知道先回誰的e-mail。優先順序，讓他有效率地運用時間，把世界和人生，簡化到一個可以掌控的局面。
這種優點，其實也是一種成見。我們大人都是帶著成見看世界的，帶著成見，我們便會節約感情，面對某些人時彬彬有禮，面對另外一些人時狗眼看人低。小朋友不夠世故，他們看世界有一種單純的邏輯。他們總是無意間蹦出一句話，當下你笑他傻，回家後想想：咦，什麼時候我對世界失去了這種見山是山的眼光？什麼時候我對人生失去了這種直接了當？
所以星期六的下午，就跟孩子玩一玩吧。他們會讓我們猛然想起自己生命中，許許多多像薩伊一樣的國家。
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[beep]~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
搞不清楚狀況就不要問那麼多蠢問題!!!!!
為什麼一定要照你想的方法做!? 你的想法就一定對嗎!? 我的感覺就不是感覺嗎!?
我不能自己做決定嗎!?
不要活在你自己夢幻的世界裡, do some research to get to know the REAL WORLD!!!
<煩!!!>
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2003年3月13日
Man~~ 頭痛中.....
待會兒再去lab.
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就是這個鬼東西害我這麼"早"才可以睡.
為了這個報告, 我的電腦都快當機了, 開了20多個視窗, 豬!!!
不要問我我在寫什麼, 因為我自己都不知道.
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What I assigned is the sequence RRG6:
CAAATTCAAAGAAGAAGATGTACAGACTGCGGGCTAGAAACTGAAGAAATTGACATTTAA
Several DNA sequences are found over 65% homology with this specific fragment. However, only one DNA sequence is found 100% homologous with this sequence ---- RAD14 ---- found from position 665844 to 665903 on the Crick strand, chromosome XIII in baker's yeast in the BLAST test.
665844 5'-TTAAATGTCAATTTCTTCAGTTTCTAGCCCGCAGTCTGTACATCTTCTTCTTTGAATTTG-3' 665903
This gene functions as one of the genes that encodes for enzyme that repair damaged DNA binding activity, and involved in nucleotide excision repair system. The general pathway of nucleotide excision repair is similar in all organisms. A multiunit enzyme hydrolyzes 2 phosphodiester bonds on both sides of the DNA lesion. After the dual incision, the DNA lesion fragment is released from the duplex by DNA helicase, then the resulting gap is filled by DNA polymerase. The final nick will then be lygated by DNA lygase. RAD14 encodes one of the subunits of the repair complex, with which the DNA lesion fragment (pyrimidine(6-4)pyrimidone photoproducts) can be recognized then can be repaired.
This is not an essential gene. Systematic deletion of this gene will not affect primary metabolism of organism. This gene will only work under the condition when DNA is mutant, and need to be repaired by DNA repair mechanism. If there is no irritation that causes DNA mutation, then this gene will not be in use.
Xeroderma pigmentosum type A (XP-A) is an autosomal recessive human disease characterized by defective nucleotide excision repair and a severe predisposition to skin cancer. And yeast gene RAD14 is associated with this human disease.
1xpa and 1d4u (chain A)are proteins of known structure with sequence similarity to the Saccharomyces cerevisiae protein RAD14/YMR201C. They function as solution structure of the dna- and rpa-binding domain of the human repair factor xpa, nmr, 1 structure; and interactions of human nucleotide excision repair protein xpa with rpa70 and dna: chemical shift mapping and 15n nmr relaxation studies, respectively.
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2003年3月12日
Not again......我又陷入悲哀中....
665844 5'-TTAAATGTCAATTTCTTCAGTTTCTAGCCCGCAGTCTGTACATCTTCTTCTTTGAATTTG-3' 665903
Nucleotide excision repair in yeast.
Human xeroderma pigmentosum group A DNA repair gene homolog
OK, what the heck are those? And I have to read an 20-page long article about it?
Shoot....Maybe I should NEVER major biochem.......
@ Sis, please tell me you're doing ok after what you have experienced today, otherwise I'll have a hard time focusing......
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真不知道為什麼middle crisis會出現在my early 20s.
Anyways, I'm recovering. 昨天晚上(今天凌晨, rather)一通長途電話, 話筒那端熟悉的聲音, 彷彿是一座遙遠的燈塔, 給我一絲絲的希望.
真是一語道破夢中人. "旁觀者清"說的真不錯.
朋友說是我心底的"長期被忽視的小孩在努力爭取我的注意", 好像有這麼一點道理...(真不愧是他社工的!!!) 我不想長大, I'm not ready for the ugly world. I hate to face unfair things, which can be found like every where in our stupid society. Deviated values, deviated judgment. I don't want to be aprt of it. I just want to be myself, can't I? (對不起啦, 說著說著就會變成英文....我正在努力改進中....)
此時此刻我的思緒還是亂的不得了(you can probably tell by my blah~~), 但是我似乎可以慢慢靜下來好好思考, 雖然我並不喜歡. (Good timing for "The Little Prince" again.) Don't worry about me, I'll be fine.......someday..... >.<"
A good news made my day: The Pau family might come for my graduation ceremony, then we'll go to Toronto for another one!!!! Never thought about that we can celebrate childhood playmate's college graduation one day~~~ We'll see.
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Come and check the picture of the day ---- 6666 (Man~~ Simon, 真有你的!!)
今天我的頭又快要爆了, 不因為別的, 絕對不是. 是因為.....Viv, 就~是~你~!!! 害我一打開話匣子就是一個小時, 我閉上眼的那一刻竟又是3:00am......Holy~~~ 今天是8:30am的biochem lecture, 聽的我頭暈目眩, "SO...this DNA.....that RNA...then....the enzyme..." Hahaha!! I didn't really get the point. 頭痛欲裂的我, 第二堂還是我的Japanese oral final...我自己在咕囔什麼我都不記得了, 只覺得很順, 就一直說下去了, 也不知道大家有沒有聽懂.....(說的好不好不知道, 我只知道我的drama部分不錯~~ Viv, 你的事業讓我也參一腳吧!?) 在lab就更慘了, solvent都配對了, solute的量卻計算錯誤. Crap. Had to do it all over again. But today is fairly good so far~~ And especially thanks to all of you who encourage me and give me so much support. I can never tell you how much I appreciate it. I'm touched. So touched.
Alright, nap time now.
(Viv, I guess you rang up my roommates this early morning....Can you try to call my cell if you really need to call me "that early"??)
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2003年3月11日
Panic attacks...panic attacks...
Japanese oral final tomorrow, but I don't think I can memorize my lines.......
Biochem project is due this Friday. (給我記著,Ted Young....都期末了, 還無端端給我出個project!?)
Oh, by the way, 今天是星期幾呀!?
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沒想到, 我其實並沒有想像中的堅強.
一直以為自己是多麼的與眾不同, 其實認真想想, 我也只不過是個煩夫俗子罷了. 我所追求的, 不也是人人都在追求的嗎!?
每當有人來問我的意見, 我都能冷靜仔細地抽絲剝繭, 分析地頭頭是道. 但是對於自己的未來, 卻是這麼茫然. "別人的問題都不是問題", 我想就是這個意思吧!?
站在人生的十字路口. 我呆望著. 我猶豫了. 我膽怯了. 我迷失了方向.
我想要什麼, 我不斷的問自己. 不就是有一個安定+有挑戰性的工作, 一個小小的溫暖的家, 一個能互相扶持的家庭, 一隻小狗? 也許不是朝九晚五的規律上班族, 但是經過了充滿挑戰性的weedays, 我想要有的是一個慵懶的weekend. 陽光從窗戶照近來, 照到床上的我和我最愛的人, 我們貪婪地享受著暖暖的陽光. 小狗跳到床上舔我們的臉, 跟我們搶被子, 誰都不想起床.......
這不是每個人都想要的嗎!?
今天下班後, 一開學校診所的大門, 印入眼簾的是一幅我看過最美的畫面. 不算小的風, 不算小的雨. 一對老公公和老婆婆攙著彼此, 走過長長的步道. 很辛苦, 但是我知道他們是甜蜜的. 我看到他們, 我知道這是我想要的, 但是我又懦怯了, 不敢放膽一搏.
在風雨中走路回家, 是很愜意的. 可是今天的我卻不是那種心情. 52F/11C的天氣, 我只穿了2件寬大的衣服, 卻一點也不覺得冷. 我想我是病了. 我發現我越來越害怕一個人, 因為我連短短的路程都要帶著我的MP3 player, 聽著音樂, 製作一種"有人在身邊"的假象自我催眠. 我墮落了, 我失去了前進的動力. 平常的我走路很快, 但是很輕鬆. 今天的我, 卻是提著沉重的步伐, 花了3倍的時間才回到家. 連過馬路都不想趕, 寧願站在雨中, 任風吹任雨打, 等下一個該我走的號誌. 像被鬼打到的我, 頭髮被風吹的凌亂不堪, 早已分不清臉上的水是雨還是淚. 我是清醒還是昏醉, 是錯還是對!?
一天下來, 我覺得我帶了一天的面具. "How's it goin'??" "I'm doing great!!" Am I really doing great? 假象!! 騙了別人也騙了自己. 我像個空虛的小丑. 不想到人多的地方social, 不想讓他們看到我脆弱的一面. 但是另一方面, 我不想自己一個人, 我怕孤獨.
我真是個難以了解的生命綜合體.
我覺得自己好沒用, 好不爭氣. 一點都不知道自己該怎麼做.
我不想成為人人茶餘飯後的八卦話題.
我只想自我放逐, 到一個沒人認識我的地方.
等我想通了, 我就會回來.
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posted by Biochemie on 1:53 下午
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3:00am in the morning, what am I doing? Just have a hard time not to think about sth....sth that confuses me for a long time. I feel so dizzy, head is so heavy....what am I doing? torturing myself. Why do I want to do that? I don't know.
Are you doing ok there at this moment?
posted by Biochemie on 3:09 上午
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2003年3月10日
I feel so empty inside.
What's my goal of life? What am I aiming for? Is what I've got now really the thing I want?
I feel SO lost. There are so many options in front of me right now, and I have no idea which way to go.
I do have dreams of course, but just that it might either be too ambitious, or too dreamy...... That's somehting I have to find out myself; that's something would never be taught in textbook; that's the most important lesson in my life. To all of us.
Got the hardest lesson tonight, but infact, I don't know how should I describe it. Pretty ambiguous.
Anyways, I think I kept TOSA meeting short + efficient + productive today. Straight to the point. It's a good thing, isn't it? I'm gonna have SO MUCH FUN next year coz I really think as a president, I should reach out to other associations as well as organize TOSA well. (Well, basically I'm the president + secretary + janitor.)
My goal of TOSA 2003~2004: encourage more grads to join us + reach out to the more "official" associations + join the Taiwanese student's association US network + have a grad. to be the presendent next term.
posted by Biochemie on 9:30 下午
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空虛中.................
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剛剛聽了一首歌, 想到以前在唸KMC的時候, 自己曾經改編過這一首. (怎麼樣!? 發現我也艇有才華的吧!?)
順勢把以前在KMC寫的報告全部翻出來看, (thanks to the technology, all of the files are in word format.) 發現以前的自己怎麼這麼厲害, 一場平淡無奇的presentation可以給他講的像一場talk show (I'm talking about the "Community" final presentation, KMC people!!) 而且還是timed. 我們這一組是全班最高分的吧!? 我們的開頭是中文+廣東話的空服員廣播, 緊接著是社區晚會的表演: 歌唱 (directed by me!!), 朗誦 (my idea), 和"阿亮的為什麼"......God, 我真是多才多藝呀!!
現在的我可是像一攤死水, 腦子是醬糊一片......再也不能那麼creative了.....
posted by Biochemie on 12:38 上午
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2003年3月9日
怎麼辦!?
我的summer要爆錶了啦.......
Plan A for Summer 2003: (23)
Intensive 200-level Japanese (15)
English 111 (5)
Inorganic Chem 312 (3)
Plan B for Summer 2003: (16)
Physical Chem 452 (3)
Genetics 371 (5)
English 111 (5)
Inorganic Chem 312 (3)
must give up Japanese minor, which I don't prefer.
posted by Biochemie on 6:26 下午
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2003年3月8日
喂!! 樓上的林旺, 可不可以安靜一點啊!? 你已經夠"夠份量"了, 現在還給我開party跳舞喔!?
(techno我還可以接受啦, 但是以你的"身材" + 跳舞....你不知道住你樓下的人很苦命嗎!?)
Anyway, take off for shower.
posted by Biochemie on 9:31 下午
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I can't take it anymore!!!!
Yi-Ling, you'd better shut the [beep] up!! Who do you think you are, huh? Too bad that I'm gonna be the president next year, and there is only one thing that I hate: going in by the "back door". We don't need you as our PR, just go back home and be your own one. Do you think writing me an e-mail will work? Huh, don't be ridiculous. You didn't even do a thing for us, why do we need you? You're here because all you want is free stuff + officer advantages. You were an officer once alright, but there is no such thing as LIFETIME officer!!!
You know what I'm gonna do? I'll send out the latest version of our officer list to all of the related Associations, and you are EXCLUDED for sure!!! WE DON'T NEED PEOPLE LIKE YOU!! GET IT?
By the way, Happy 24th Birthday, Simon!!!
posted by Biochemie on 2:06 上午
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2003年3月6日
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SO TIRED today....
Basically spent almost 12 hours hanging outside today.
Went to Bellevue for a nice lunch for about 2.5 hours, (and we found the area is a pretty good place to go after graduation!!) which is the first time for me going off-bound for a "lunch" during weekdays......
Anyway, we gotta get back and get a cup of bubble tea before 6:00pm, coz TOSA president + vice-president was gonna have a meeting with the Taiwanese Association president. We went to a "country club" (a place like Tien-Mu Landmark and ACC), fantastic view, but ok-dinner. (guess it's because we finished our lunch at 4:00pm, and I actually didn't feel like eating at all..... ) Basically spent like almost 5 hours on this meeting thing, and I'm pretty sure that we're gonna have at least 2 more in the near future. I can now totally foresee what's my life will be next year....all the social stuff coming up......ok, can I skip that?
So tired....and I still have to study for my Japanese test....wish me luck!!!
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2003年3月5日
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Isn't it COOL???
Click it and check it out~~~~
posted by Biochemie on 12:42 上午
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I can now sense how my next year will be like......
(Should I switch all of my incoming calls to my cell phone so that I can view who's calling coz of the caller ID feature? )
I got endless annoying calls from one of our "officers", who think she still is ---- on the LIFETIME bases ---- and talked about TOSA stuff. God!! I'm NOT YET the president, ok!? Don't gimme bunch of stupid excuses why you cannot join our once-a-week-only meeting. And if you cannot make it to the meetings, then forget about being a officer!! I'm SO SO SO sick of your greedy for officer-privilege. (free food or free ride to Vancouver or sth like that....) Can you just cut that crap out!? Don't think about being a lifetime officer, there is no such thing like that!!! The only thing you are so good at is just standing there and converting oxygen into carbon dioxide!!!
I can feel that she always make phone calls to "bother" people, (like what she did to me tonight) and tries to get people's attention. But you know what, if you have ability to handle things and take care of them, then people will get to you spontaneously!!! Don't gimme that look, I'm really sick of it!! Would you still call me whould it not for I'll be the president? Haha, I seriously don't think so. So, just suck it up, go back to your greenhouse, and have fun with your plants!!! Ciao!!
posted by Biochemie on 8:19 下午
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God.....this is not so good.......
2:40am in the morning, I'm still up?
I feel kinda dizzy, but just don't want to go to bed at all.....somehow I feel I can think more clearly at nights, but I don't really have to thing about anything at this moment. Oh well, I guess I do have to.
So many unexplainable feelings in my mind turning me over and over, and I cannot tell what those are. Sad, isn't it? If I cannot understand myself, how can people understand me?
posted by Biochemie on 2:41 上午
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Today, I tried giving my blood for one stupid reason: make myself useful.
But you know what!!!!! My cofactor for hemoglobin ---- "iron" ---- was not enough. The first time ever. So frustrated.
Maybe I should go to bed before 12:00am and eat right from now on.
2 more weeks to go, then I'll be in MCAT hell.
Any cool plan for your spring break?
posted by Biochemie on 2:24 上午
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2003年3月2日
Viv, where can I find some Japanese songs sang by �����������������A�����������������A�����便ids!?
Japanese songs can be really cool!!
posted by Biochemie on 9:46 下午
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God....I can't believe this.
You gotta check this out!!
MTV YATTA
posted by Biochemie on 8:52 下午
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Such a relaxing day~~~
NICE!!
I'm totally into the online shopping thing today, and I found several good shopping sites, some of them provides free shipping!! (oh~~ that's the most important part except the items to me, hee hee hee~~)
I need to buy some MCAT and GRE books, so that's why.....(and I also checked Tiffany & CO. and thinking about buying a Paloma Picasso style necklace for Mom, but dunno which one is better......X or Scribble :P)
How about a vote here?
(I'll bay myself a Return to Tiffany bracelet anyway.... :P)
posted by Biochemie on 5:45 下午
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I just feel so lost these days......
It's about time to think about what to do in the future, but I'm not so sure about what I'm gonna go for.......
I contact Roche last night, and hopefully they will give me some good news in the next couple of days.
It's kinda late, but.....
Happy Birthday, Susan!!
posted by Biochemie on 1:44 上午
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